BlueYoshi97

Aaaah, Ywa? W-w-what are you saying!!!? This will be the end of the servers! We're finished! We're done for! We will be laughed at! We will be spit upon! You have provoked an hacking-attack! Oh, whatever should we do? ;-( Offtopic: This forum is missing proper crying smilies emoticons.

I think I didn't explain that feeling right. I can still have fun, fun means everything to me. Because there is only one life, so may as well pack it with fun till you're gone. I just never really feel comfortable. And sudden negative thoughts are always there to limit the happy thoughts. Ritalin might play a part in this too (I mean it might explain why I feel so much more active at night time). Thank you again for your post. I appreciate it that you help me, and that it is hard because I can't explain my feelings right, I don't even understand it myself. But what do you mean about the chess? I mean it's like this: I go to the psychologist, he asks me if something happened the past week that I want to talk about, I say "no", he asks do you still want to do something, I say "okay; chess (or another game)" and after that we call it a day. I know you all think why I go there if I don't want to talk. I never talk.

Peace easy. There are more fun things in life than hacking, you know?

They are with 'priscription', yeah. @ Bloated Float: I don't know. Never really thought about it. I may be schizophrenic... @ NPhect: That would only help in combination with a 40 and a blunt. I'm not starting that. I go to a psychologist every week. I play chess there, and basically waste both our times. But when this doesn't stop, I guess I'll have to tell him... Thank you all so much for the reactions.

My mother knows about that I have nightmares and panic attacks, yeah. All others, no. I am secretly hoping all other things are just illusions I can't help.

So um..... lately.... um, it's kinda hard.. I can't sleep at night, I even take sleeping pills but every single night I'm going crazy... For the past week I have been going to bed at around twelve o'clock, and fell asleep at around 4 AM or later. But I don't even feel tired of sleeping only 3 or 4 hours every night... I'm a bit paranoid, I can't stand the silence and dark. I don't know why. I start to feel lonely in a way, keep getting crazy thoughts in my mind, plus I'm scared of burglars (but not that bad, I can tell myself that they aren't there). Also, I keep having nightmares. I keep having a lot at one night, I think I also wake up a few times during my sleep. The nightmares also confuse me because sometimes they are realistic and then I can't tell dream from reality. Thirdly, I have panic attacks. I really don't understand those. But it makes me being scared even more. I'm also really afraid of dying, things going bad, keep having negative thoughts in my mind which I physically shake my head to, but I have had these for way longer. There is more to this phenomenon as well... my mind prevents me to do anything. It's hard to feel happy... it's like I forbid myself to be happy. I also have more and more periods of depression. But these are things, I think are normal to someone who is autistic and has ADD... But I'm wondering... what's happening? I feel like I'm trapped in my mind, that I can't just live a normal life. This topic may seem kinda useless but... I wonder if it helps. Am I going crazy? Or does this happen to everyone? Will all this end after a while? Am I just exagerating and malingering? Do you know how to stop it? I do not wish to disturb you guys on your daily basis.

I agree with you... but I think it won't work anyway. The average Spanish/Russian won't start talking English just because that rule is suddenly there, because they aren't as good in it as most of us...

She looks like a cool turtle.. happy birthday Henry.

Cool, I have been to Gothenburg in Sweden...

I would love to join you, but sadly, I am not a good player, especially not when it comes to winning as a team.

Just because I think its lame doesnt mean its bullshit. The movie is just some random gameplay that is not interesting to watch. go to ur dutch forums and stop spamming posts : ) or there will be problems Nay.... I must say Heinix, it would be better if you not just post "Lame" but also give arguments in it about why it is lame.... if you do just that, I hope people will stop complaining about you....

I am sure that she will rest in peace, and her soul will still visit you often, giving you mental support in thanks of all the fun times you gave her (plus the food, probably).

Good luck. It is a nice application, I hope that you will become active on the forums and IRC.

So I'm wondering... how do some of you know video games don't do damage? We are smart enough to not grab a chainsaw and wipe down our city after playing too much L4D, or jacking a car and shooting some tires à la GTA, but some people (which aren't normal anyway) get a bad influence by it. Also, videogames get more popular and better, future kids may get to learn to play war games/violence games from a young age, it may become normal. The raise of a kid is vital. If I must be serious... I have never done anything I learned from videogames, but I wanted to. For example, after playing much Oblivion and becoming a masterthief, I started thinking about just sneaking every small object I found everywhere in my pocket. Breaking into houses would be the next part. Luckily I can convince myself not to, but some people can not. So.... but war, of course, doesn't start from videogames. (Although a certain Flight Simulator may have been one of million reasons for this since 2001, but let's not get that far).

In this topic, you can say what you thought when you saw that video^, and then maybe start a whole dandy discussion about US troops, war and such while you are at it. I must say I hope this doesn't happen on more occasions...

I watched the whole fucking video... Not only was the music the most terrible thing ever, I am also afraid that those ugly faces won't really help taking away my paranoia at night. -3/10 So, anyway... like Sneed, I will post Earthbound/Mother music. Oh yeah, um this is my video, but that is just... a coincidence. Not that I take this opportunity to make you watch it of course. But you have to!! The background music is... I don't know, just a song from Earthbound/Mother.

No Heinix! Stay spamming here, please! Your shameless opinions compensate the useful posts. It wouldn't be the same without you!

Yeah... I didn't do this post on purpose... sorry. @ Lemon!: To be honest, I do not know how they pronounce that laughter, but if they pronounce it like I would, I wonder if they don't get tired of laughing real quick.

Thank you for your point of view! After a while I just got used to it... I even learned some Spanish from the people in the server (some of these I know already, I have been to camp with Spanish, Czech and Catalan people and there they didn't speak English too): "culo" "puto" "te mamo la vierga" "te voy a romper el orto" "boludo" "chinga tu madre" "hijo de puta" "mama bicho" "vamos" "jajajajajajajajajaja" And more quotes, which are usually in caps and I don't read those. But I don't care when someone says "vamos" because that is just random.

10/10 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nzjlk-kOgvI

I agree with you. Nice video! 4:38 is the coolest.

The ice cream man is comiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing. Completely sorry for going off the rail, but I had to drop the Method Man quote.

No worries, we Dutchies have a Donald Duck moment to be "proud" of too.

Thank you so much, Puma! This topic arrived right on time for me too...

Nice video, TR_Erman! I do especially like it because you seem to have around the same driving-style as me - bumping into others, accidentally taking the wrong route, bumping into others, losing first place because of bad luck and bumping into others... you are still better than me though...